So guess what step I am on in this incredible journey I am taking? I am choosing life, I am choosing to live, I am making a conscious effort to know that I am who I am for a reason, even though I am uncovering new parts of me all the time. I am choosing happiness over anger or sadness, I am choosing joy over frustration or depression.
So at this moment here is what I have to say: I am beautiful and no one can tell me anything different. So you say I am ugly? Why? Is it because I chose to love over hate? Oh wait, you are looking at my outside before knowing my inside, but that is okay by me because I know God created me in His image, not yours, not any man or woman's image. I am perfect because this is how He chose to make me. So what if I am not supermodel size 4 or the average American size 14, I am beautiful just the way I am. Are you shocked because I chose not to look like everyone around me? I want to be different, I chose to be different. I love funky haircuts and colors because that is a part of me, that is the part of me that says I can do whatever the fuck I want to do because I am a human being just like you, but I do not have to look just like you or act just like you or dress just like you. I am choosing to be comfortable in my own skin, maybe you should try that on for size. Personally, being comfortable in my own skin has been a journey, but a journey that has been well worth the pain, anguish, discomfort, frustration, anxiety because now I get to see the true beauty I have been hiding behind all this time. We all make choices every day, what are you choosing today?
You can choose to hide your pain and anger in that alcohol or drug, rather it is illegal or legal, that mean substances you ingest and substances you feel that you have to have to make you comfortable, such as shopping, material items, eating in excess, not taking care of yourself, etc. Yeah I know what I am talking about because I use to be one that hid behind multiple masks, but I am making a conscious effort starting right this moment not to live in those masks any more. Masks of self defeat, self destruction, selfishness, material items satisfying and making me who I am, etc.
Choice is a word that keeps coming up throughout this, but exactly what does this mean? Here are some synonyms that might help you understand why I am using this word so much: option, variety, superior, and carefully selected. That is right choices become superior to what else we could have decided to do and choices are carefully selected because we chose how we are going to react to someone else around us. So in closing I say this: choose wisely my friend, because you never know when that choice is going to be there again.
Be blessed, find peace and abundance in your life!
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